blue

Woke up feeling blue...bad night last night didnt sleep a bit... bad T-storms,tornado warnings, my baby scared as I held her my heart aches so bad to hold my boys. As I face my fears today I will try my hardest to hold my head high, shoulders back, and smile on my face. Not let anyone see the fear I have, the hurt in my heart, the wall that I have built around me so no one can hurt me. I am taking steps baby steps one foot in front of the other. It doesnt happen overnight, it takes time, a long time but I will overcome this one day. I know that God is watching over me and carrying me through it all. I also know that I have my angels (papa,and both my grandpas) getting me through every second of the day. so for now I am gonna go wake my baby girl up for school and hug her a lil tighter this morning.